This time last year I feel as though I was a different person. Sorta lost and not really sure where I was headed. Then I went to Passion and was really challenged with getting involved in my local church. I mean really involved, not just going on that Sunday I really felt guilty about falling away from the church. I had become a statistic. Little did I know that this would change my life in such a drastic manner! (I had a feeling it would, I just ignored it).
When I went to passion last year I was really convicted about some things in my life that just weren't quite right. I was also super focused on the future and what would happen in the next year or so of my life. I felt God calling me from a dark place in my own life to go serve Him in a different context. I was confused and wondered why He had not called me when I was closer to Him, but He called me when I was further away. I began to search for different ways to serve Him elsewhere after graduation. Who would have thought that I would end up in Liberia just a few months later? I didn't, but that is exactly where I ended up. I was so focused on doing something after graduation and the job and the plans that I almost missed the now. The ironic thing is that my plans for the "FUTURE" has actually become the "NOW" and I am out of my own plans. I don't have a job yet, and as unsettling as that is in my mind He is making me incredibly strong in my heart. I am not sure if that makes any sense to anyone else, but it does to me. The planner in me is screaming out with fear, exhaustion, and confusion. Yet in the night when I am just at a loss of what to think or do I still hear that voice somewhere within me saying "fear not, I have plans for you. HELLO I have had plans for you from the beginning of time, just wait." So here I am.... waiting patiently (occasionally unpatiently aka still human).
Back to getting involved in church. I decided to join the Church at Brook Hills and finally find a small group to live life with. After awhile of uncomfortable gatherings and a couple groups later I found my small group. I absolutely love this group of girls. We surround each other and support each other like family and I could not ask for more. We go to each other's events, pray for each other daily, call and text each other on the good days and the bad days, and we gather to study the word weekly in each other's houses. We serve others together and we pray for the nations together. We keep each other accountable, and I cannot be any more thankful for God putting these girls in my life. I have truly learned what it means to live life together as a body of Christ. I cannot believe I ever walked away from the body of Christ, but I did and I am a story of God's redeeming love. My life has truly turned 180, at least on the inside. I mean I still have plenty of things to work on and I sometimes have to remind myself of what He has done when I start to doubt His plans for me, but I quickly find myself humbled and reminded of everything that has changed. I'm ridiculously thankful for my faith family, for my small group, anyone involved in my life over the last year, and every single person reading this, and I just wanted to let you know.
Back to getting involved in church. I decided to join the Church at Brook Hills and finally find a small group to live life with. After awhile of uncomfortable gatherings and a couple groups later I found my small group. I absolutely love this group of girls. We surround each other and support each other like family and I could not ask for more. We go to each other's events, pray for each other daily, call and text each other on the good days and the bad days, and we gather to study the word weekly in each other's houses. We serve others together and we pray for the nations together. We keep each other accountable, and I cannot be any more thankful for God putting these girls in my life. I have truly learned what it means to live life together as a body of Christ. I cannot believe I ever walked away from the body of Christ, but I did and I am a story of God's redeeming love. My life has truly turned 180, at least on the inside. I mean I still have plenty of things to work on and I sometimes have to remind myself of what He has done when I start to doubt His plans for me, but I quickly find myself humbled and reminded of everything that has changed. I'm ridiculously thankful for my faith family, for my small group, anyone involved in my life over the last year, and every single person reading this, and I just wanted to let you know. 
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